Damn, im so sad.... adrian last day is tomorrow. ;o;
seriously he's like the most amazing guy every, and really
he's a great friend, brother figure.
Fuck im going to miss him so much. Im so upset about this really.. -.-
why am i all ways the last to know? like i was not told he was moving to the island!
and now theres of a while left before he goes there. how stupid
the island fails too. -.- why would you want to go there.
Anyways... -.- fucking sucks.

Michael's last day is tomorrow too. then he goes back to korea. -.-
And we were just starting to get close and be friends and now. im losing
some one again. Why does this happen?

Anyways.. its about. 16 days till i go back to school
play fees on the 25th. -.- and then ... family wants me to
go back to alberta. i really don't want to go. Its not that i don't want to see my family.
its just. I had no summer. well i did. but ive been working for the past 7 weeks straight.
i want to catch up on my sleep and get ready for classes, and having to go back to school and have a fucked up random schduel. The likeliness of me getting sponsered again are slim to nun. so that means im paying for every thing myself. but i shouldn't complain because other people are. fuck money.

Adrian gave me two more len's for my camera, fuck they are amazing. -.- they make me want a dark room so much more. -.- why wont any one take this house? its goign to make me cry even more.

fuck. im so tired. and so just trying to finger shit out. its so ... fail -.- i want to sleep for a week straight. And not have to owe people anything or be there, or be around.
But i feel so distant from every one. No one feels comfy anymore. its like every one is a stranger, that i know there name of. ^^;;

but... fuck.... just.iawefjowijsdk who knows anymore. cuz i obviously dont.

Oh man I'm so tired and sleepy!!!! I finished my projects!! :D I feel so accomplished!! But I'm sooo tired like you wouldn't believe and I'm cold.

Anyways, onwards to happy things. I'm starting to get familiar with photoshop a bit...so I'm thinking that once I know how to make icons, I will be making some!!! How does that sound? XD

Just wanted to ask if anyone knows of any good tutorials for a beginner icon maker? :D
Or a site or comm. that can help me out! Thx. ^____^

I don’t need a passport to walk on this earth
Anywhere I go ’cause I was made of this earth
I'm born of this earth, I breathe of this earth
And even with the pain I believe in this earth
so I wake up every mornin' and I'm steppin' on the floor
I wake up every mornin' and I'm steppin' out the door
I got faith in the sky, faith in the one
faith in the people rockin' underneath the sun
'cause every bit of land is a holy land
and every drop of water is a holy water
and every single child is a son or a daughter
of the one earth mama and the one earth papa, so
don’t tell a man that he can’t come here 'cause he got brown eyes and a wavy kind of hair,
And don’t tell a woman that she can’t go there
because she prays a little different to a god up there,
You say you’re a Christian ’cause God made you,
You say you’re a Muslim ’cause God made you,
You say you’re a Hindu and the next man a Jew
And we all kill each other 'cause god told us to? NAW!

Follow me, follow me
let me take you to the dance hall
now to come on, rock this rhythm (rockin' rockin')
Follow me, follow me, follow me
let me take to the dance hall now
now to come a skankin'
Follow me
let me take to the dancehall
now to come a rock this rhythm
Follow me
let me take to the dancehall
in a Spearhead style
Now hear this!
So you dance to the rhythm
bounce to the rhythm
shake to the rhythm
and you roll the rhythm
sweat to the rhythm
get wet to the rhythm
make love to the rhythm
clean up to the rhythm
when you movin' you come alive
and when you grooving in rhythm we survive, so
don't panic, don't panic
no drum machine, this is all organic
just Sly and Robbie on the drums and bass
Sticky on percussion and we mashin' up the place
givin' you a beat you can rock and roll to
givin' you a sound you can shake your soul to, so
hip-hoppas, punk rockas
roots rockas, even Woodstockas
don't need a passport, just send a postcard
send me a message, let me know how you are
whether you're walkin' or drivin' in your car
throw your hands high, tell me who you are


Some of the lyrics from the song, i just took out a few parts. XD

1) Go to Photobucket (don't sign in)
2) Type your answer to (each) question in the "search" box
3) Copy the html of the picture (your answer) then paste, for the answer.

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a really sweet video. Watch it. it makes me happy.

=D hope ever one is doing good.

Its called "first day of my life by bright eyes"

"Nineteen"

I felt you in my legs
Before I even met you
And when I laid beside you
For the first time
I told you
I feel you in my heart,
And I don't even know you
Now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
Now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
I was nineteen
(Call me)
I felt you in my life
Before I ever thought to
Feel the need to lay down
Beside you
And tell you
I feel you in my heart,
And I don't even know you
And now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
Now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
I was nineteen
(call me)
I was nineteen
(call me)
Flew home,
Back to where we met
Stayed inside
I was so upset
Cooked up a plan,
So good except
I was all alone
You were all I had
Love you
You were all mine
Love me
I was yours right
I was yours right
I was nineteen
(call me)
I was nineteen
(call me)


Damn, i love tegan and sara so much. And today i got to see them live.
JAZZY took me. ^^ as a belated bday gift. ^^ shes amazing <3
So then omg, they played that song, and... i teared up. yeah i know
dork. but ... -.- idk, alot of there songs made me think, and made me
sad, and made me want to cry. -.-.
idk... idk what to do anymore. im so lost. Come find me? *preferable tegan. xD*

Im shaking. might be from the cold. might be from the alcohol.
i just got hoem from the bar. which is cool. jesus's bday today.
his mom bough us a round of YAGABOMBS! bahahha. but i
declined mine like a good little girl. and passed it off to jeuses's friend.

Um. I got a bike today. and even though i was so pumped on it. *ITS FUCKING AMAZING*
jazzy said that... that im not myself. im not... as happy? *pouts* but... i am happy. right?
mmm... -.- maybe im just growing up. but i got so hyper on the shuttle bus back to the skytrain. AND THRUSTING weNT DoWN! omg. fioawejfiojafoijdsafoij bhahahahahaha
i have so many cool dance moves.
Ugh i feel like shit right now. i need a shower, and a nice warm bed. and not have to go to work tomorrow. but meh. =.= idk.
Im a ride my BMX to work tomorrow. Fuck i hate that big hill. its going to be the death of me. ^^

Um ive decided to start putting shit together. im going to go get a new gym pass and start going. and im going to limit my time on the computer. ill only come on to update and rp. and maybe chat a bit if i can. but really. i need to start reading. and getting ready for next term i cant fail art history again. and ... i need to start drawing. i miss it so much. like
wtf am i doing. i know i draw like shit. but really. -.- ugh. i need to work harder.

OMG I PUT MY PANTS ON TODAY. and im like. shoot why my pants looking so good on me. BHAHAHAHAHAHAHA cuz im awesome like that. ... damn.

K NIGHT NIGHT EVERY ONE.
<33333333333 talk to you... well idk, btu talk to you soon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY pach_unni!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Infinite love and blessings on your birthday!!!!! ILU!!!! *hugs tight* ♥♥♥

So im a bit mixed up.
today was such a good day. decided not to go out to the club
only because im tired as hell and got home around. 230 last night.
so meh i didn't get much sleep because i had to be up early and go get my
ipod. *30g* back from repairs. BUT I HAVE IT NOW! JOY JOY JOY. so im happy
and then i got 70$ worth of books/mangas at the book store, then got a book.
and then. spent 30+ at a jap convenient store down town. *went to two cities today*
then went for potstickers. SOOOOO GOOD! steamed of course. and then
later went for chocolate fondu, which i was excited to tell people
but no one else fucking interested with my stories. thanks for helping me loose
my faith in others. oh well. again attention deprived..

Um talked to sarafpants today, and she talked to me about my ... relationship.
and she doesn't like it. and stuff. so its kinda sad. well no shes happy when im happy
but not when im sad. so -.- idk what to do. i don't want to listen to my friends right now
but some times i can't help but think about it. -.- fuck why am i a failure. this feeling sucks. i talk to more people on the phone then i do some one else. -.- sucks but i already knew this was happening, we talked it through and stuff. but its still really fucking hard. ok.

When i dont like people, i don't like them. Not going as fare as saying hate. but i can hold a grudge on some one that wont be lifted. So if i dont like you. face it. your never goign to be my friend again. deal. But. Really the only thing that makes me not like you is. disrespect for your self or for others, especial if the others are my friends. or me. So like seriously if you wonder why the world hates you, take a fucking step back and see why no one likes you. because your fucking stupid and immature and an idiot who is so self centered and treats other people like fucking shit. There are so many amazing people out there that get taken advantage of, and you think its ok, because you had a tough life? well know what your fucking some one up, who really is trying hard to be a good person still. your just... ugh people like that fucking piss me off. and you need to grow up and learn to treat people better.

So for people who i dont like, don't try to make amends with me. its pointless. Maybe you'll get lucky and you can try again in a year or so.

K yeah. so sorry if it makes no sense. imjust... angry.
ugh i feel like... shit... after such an amazing day. I miss my YD... even though i talk to you most of the time... -.-

why do i feel so lonely?


....Japan seems so far away...

SO... you all fail.

THATS RIGHT IM CALLING YOU ALL OUT.

"ohh ill email, and write you, and text you!"

MY ASS! nothing. wookie maybe, only because... well wookie is wookie.
*exception of a few others too*

But im calling you out. WAY TO NEVER COMMENT
IM I JUST INVISABLE TO YOU!?
maybe ill run out infront of a car and see if i get some reactions.

anyways im attention deprived can you tell?

So this weekend was going to be just a random boring old weekend. BUT
OMG YES YES THATS RIGHT I HAVE PLANS!

So... tomorrow. *friday* im going to some ...awesome like. coldplay light show for 99 cents
BAHHHA MAKING ALL MY FRIENDS GO! XD PLANITARIUM FTW
Saturday.
is movie, then fondu, THEN CLUBBING AT CLUB PLUSH? i think so. ^^ im excited.
SUNDAY is JESUS'S bday. so we are goign to a sketchy bar *the cambie?* and watching him celebrate his bday for a bit. then go hoem and have work monday.

OMG....I GOT PAID TODAY!
Its nice having a good paying job. well not good, it kind is sucky, but money is money, and i love my job. But every time i get paid its kinda like a shock ... its like...
"oh? what is this for?" i forget sometimes i get paid. DX my bad. ^^
and
NOW I NEED HELP BUDGETING. because well.. i need to save up for stuff. and stuff. and people and stuff. and clothes. DX back to school clothes. FOR COLLAGE! YAY SECOND YEAR!
XD

So, i have realized that even though right now there is only one girl for me. *ilu.*
but wow.. i crush on people so easily. its kinda fail. and i flirt alot.. -.- im sorry for that too. i cant help it. But i think.. i think i have a person who.. i want to spend alot of time with. but idk yet. we'll have to see what tomorrow brings right!? ^^

Saw the clip of hangeng running. so cute. he looked so excited. XD but yeah like other people have said i wish it was longer.

SO FAIL ON PEOPLE in a rp im in. YOU ALL NEED TO RP MORE! my computer has crashed, and my internet time is so limited YET IM STILL ABLE TO RP. i know there are a few exceptions out there. but stil come on people. im a creepy person i need to ready your good time. XD and it helps me if the net gets boring. DX some times it does. lately it has alot. idk how but it has. i feel kinda lost here.

Hey guys, I'm fixing up my LJ and for once I'll stop being so damn lazy. I'm starting to post up my work, and I'll be putting up list-index sort of thing to keep my shit more organized. ^O^. Comment here to be added, don't worry; I don't bite...I promise!